2019 Thoughts

I'm ready for something different. I'm still working for that same place I mentioned in the old man poop story earlier, but I've given up my position. I'm technically at the bottom of a different climbable ladder now, but I have no intention of climbing it. I'm starting back to school soon and I need to start getting myself motivated and disciplined. These are things I've struggled with for so long and I'm kind of excited that this blog thing could help motivate me BIG TIME. You can already see my name right? Why not a picture too? I feel I am overweight. I say this not to make anybody feel bad but to state my truth. I'm unhappy with it, and instead of changing my attitude about it I'm going to change me. Hopefully. My follow through is lacking in many areas. I want to write a book, and the most I've done with that is mention it in conversations and write maybe two pages worth of something I'd reread and probably scrap. So, here goes. This blog should become something, if I stick with it, that gives me a sense of time and progress and how much I've been wasting before. This motivation comes from "Magic Lessons" a podcast by Elizabeth Gilbert, and specifically her episode with Glennon Doyle Melton.

Please, blog, keep me honest.

Now I'll try to post a picture.

Quick stats! I weigh around 300lbs right now. I don't have the exact weight. I didn't weigh because I have already eaten today and that feels like an unfair situation even though it would probably at maximum add one pound. Also I'm already wearing my clothes, and I'm not letting those add either.
Wow, I really hate this. I'm assuming I'll get better at taking pictures and maybe even start getting okay with looking at myself in photos, but I hate this so much. I was thinking a once a day thing but it'll maybe be a once a week thing.

Whoops, now I'm center formatted and don't know how to change back to align right. Well, it's time to post this sucker before I start looking back. 2019 blog post done!

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